Four nights ago I was on my way to Matt's to see his new car...

I was making a left hand turn at the intersection of Rt. 1 and 452. A drunk driver ran thru the red light and slammed into me. My (mom's) car is an SUV, the guy who hit me has a Honda Accord. He was going pretty fast. He sent the Nox 20 yards down the road in the opposite direction of which I came.

You know how when you're almost in an accident, things slow down, you tense up, and you get that feeling in your body that you're going to be hit? Well... none of that happened. I honestly didn't even see him coming. And I didn't even see him hit me, actually. I lost consciousness for 5 or 10 seconds. It was as if my brain took over to say "you don't want to be aware of the reality of what's going on".

At the time I didn't realize I had lost consciousness. I actually heard the crunch of metal. I was aware of what was happening, I just didn't see any of it.


I opened my eyes and saw the opened airbags and smoke filling up my car. I was in so much pain immediately after the hit. I couldn't move. I thought my kneecaps were broken. My back & neck were stiff and I wasn't even going to try to turn my head.

I started having a spell. I was blacking out and nauseous. Ugh, it was horrible.


My cell phone flew around the car during the accident. I felt around for it and couldn’t find it. So I wasn’t even one of the people that called it in.

A couple minutes later the police and paramedics were there. They asked me a ton of questions to see if I could remember anything. And I remembered EVERYTHING. One EMT got in the back of my car and held my head incase if I had a neck injury, I needed to stay as still as possible.
A couple minutes later they helped me onto the stretcher and loaded me into the ambulance. A lot of the EMT’s knew me. They’re friends with my dad. So they took extra good care of me. :) It was in the ambulance that I noticed I couldn’t feel my fingers, and that I was freezing. I pushed down on my thumb, and I could have sworn that was broken too. I had pain shooting through me everywhere.

I was transported to Crozer Hospital because of my “non-trauma syncope”. They took x-rays of my hand, and a cat-scan of my head and neck. Everything came back fine.
It just took forever. I was in the ER from 9:30pm to 3am. It was a long night.

And since then, I’m recovering. Taking pain meds, crying, watching movies, taking deep breaths, and making sure I get up and walk around a little bit which is thoroughly exhausting. Stairs are killer.

So that was the end of my dad’s 50th birthday and what I’ve been doing this weekend.
Oh && Happy Easter.

Busy day. Running errands. So much to get done. I wish I was with Matt right now.

I love sinus headaches! If you didn't pick up on that sarcasm... there might be something wrong with you.

Matt & I went to Blockbuster, and decided to take my dog, Sadie, for the car ride. Well, she pooped in the truck. It was gross and smelled horrible-I was gagging and everything.

Saw the cardiologist this afternoon. What an odd relationship I have with that entire office. Good times.

Tomorrow is my dad's 50th birthday. We celebrated it tonight. Mom made him his favorite dinner; we ate cake, and he opened his presents. It was mightily grand.

Half a century old. What a mile-marker.

& the movie The Science of Sleep is really friggin' weird.

Where I want to be?

On this bridge.

It's so  q u i e t,  so peaceful, so serene.

I want to sit on the edge with my feet dangli
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Watching the waters current slowly pass by.

Breathing fresh air, mind clear, feeling free.

Surrounded by God's creation is blissful to me.

Yesterday there was a crazy big thunderstorm that came through. Thunder, lightning, rain coming down so hard you could barely see the road in front of you kind of thunderstorm.

I finally heard back from the job that I went on a second interview for. I didn't get the job. I was actually really surprised. I'm kinda bummed about it. But it just wasn't meant to be for some reason.

Last night Matt and I hung out with one of his friends (and a bunch of his friends) from the car club. I didn't know what to expect. Usually people are so standoffish, but these people were awesome! Very friendly and fun.

Today Matt and I went to Linvilla Orchards! I haven't been there in so long. I had so much fun. There were these families there with real little kids and they were giggling at me because I was so into it. I fed a ton of the animals and pet/fed the horses. Ah, it was awesome. I had so fun

Is this for real? Because that would be awesome!
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When the world has fallen out from under me
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